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By Jack Joseph Smith
By Jack Joseph Smith
Original Scan
AI Interpretation
Albright Harkins remembers a lake visit around age eight in 1949 with Rusty. He describes waves, light at Big Bear Lodge, and an oar snapping in an Indian man's hands.
Harkins describes the child's wonder at light he cannot grasp and adds claims of happyness, search, and beginning with the best of madness. He ends with Rusty and enormous me. The handwritten cluster near the distant remains unresolved; the transcription keeps the other supported revisions.
Headed 'Page 2' with the handwritten name 'JOE', this typed and hand-revised draft places 'Albright Harkins' at about eight, in 'nineteen / forty nine', at a huge lake and lodge. The waves have 'thin and long white straight / teeth', breakfast at 'Big Bear Lodge' comes 'before daylight', and the dawn light is something 'You can breath it, but you can't touch it.' Margin writing adds 'is my happyness, as strong as any search, / I am one of those few young ones who have / begun / with / the / best / of / madness', and the page ends with a struck phrase replaced by 'enormous / me.'
The page moves between a child's-eye memory of water, light and 'the Indian man's hands' when the oar snapped, and the writer revising his own draft in the margins ('Not to be confused', 'After this, all will be easy.'). The handwritten additions push the memory toward self-assertion, turning the boy into 'enormous / me.' and naming 'madness' as a starting point. The effect is lyrical, unstable and openly unfinished.