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Chapter V Four years now I have been at Saint Bernards, and what have I seen? What do I know? I am twelve years old? Who knows when I walk so very quickly turning around to see myself putting my shoe over a crack in the sidewalk and then putting my other foot over another crack. I am consistant in my movements. I let nothing go by I do not touch. Sometimes I am afraid to go home, because I know the cops will be waiting. What a surrealistic sight they made so many times on such a fairy tale street. I have stolen a bit of lumber from the builders. Enough to build a town, they say. And when they find my shacks they tear them down. No matter, I'll steal more, and avenge myself for Mister Metzes; and not only steal next time, but wreck their houses as well. I have been watching my fire now for five years in the spring. It burns orange and the smoke goes into the clouds and mingles a dark death kind of texture under the yellow blue light of the sun we children of the world have colored on our papers you step on in the street. In the beginning the fire crackles in a broken sound and then spreads across the grass and wheat forming a circle in its dancing rhythm. It grows and grows and soon belongs to the sky. I run away and hide and then sneak back up my street. There you are in your firetrucks protecting real estate signs and the new houses that I am telling you are an imposition on my freedom. They drove Mister Metzes away and they are nothing but a stupid blemish hanging by their lives beneath my torch. The neighbors stand around and talk about who ever in the world would do such a thing year after year. How exciting it is to see you under my alter. What do I know? I know Daniel is the only one who knows Kennedy forest as well as I. We could hide out there for years. But the houses keep coming closer to the top of the hill. Soon the bastards will run their bulldozers over the apple