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Colonel began to fumble with his words, reaching inward and outward simultaneously; he swore sincere; He explained that working ones life away for others had become wretched to him. It seemed difficult at first; that is to say that if stilled pictures of Colonel's face would have been put in- to frames; one would have experienced a tightness vision. He rejected the will be knew almost comforting, if it was not for a will he had designed to temper inner feeling from appear- ing all to visible. He explained to Animal that what he was feeling took on a shape in his mind; that sometimes con- stituted a gnaw similar to an awake nightmare. It was difficult for Colonel, because he could easily see that Animal had never felt the sensat- ion of being totally trapped. Animal's viewpoint of "playing the game" had always been scheduled into short periods of time; Positions whereupon he could manipulate conditions; of course, place somewhat extended to the tune of free existence. Animal looked at Colonel, seeing that anyone of his peculiar nature would have difficulties wigg- ling money from the establishment; even though in his Animal's particular case it was family, which was also strenuous.